Wednesday, September 28, 2011

A Story in Songs

WayFM has been hosting the Fall Pledge Drive for the past two weeks. I support this radio station fully, and I have been an "impact partner" through giving in donations in the past and have considered beginning my pledge of donations once again. I understand the pledge drive is very important to keep WayFM on the air because they are a listener supported radio station, so I am not downing the station for having the drive. However, the incessant requests for donations have since led me to fall back on old cds to pacify my need for less talk, more songs. As I was flipping through my CD cases, I ran across a mixed CD titled "Top 20 Melt Down" which includes the top 20 songs in one of the months of 2007. I absolutely love this CD because it has old songs that become brand new to me once again, yet each song is filled with connected memories from that point in my life. Listening to this CD led me to think about past songs and past events. I have really had a memory-filled week, and it has been refreshing.

I grew up listening to contemporary christian music in my mom's van. My favorite was country, so I always got excited when WayFM would cut out after we got into town. It wasn't until I started a new youth group at Friendship Baptist Church and the youth pastors introduced me to a song by Jeremy Camp that my love for contemporary christian music grew. The song was called, "Walk By Faith," and it came out around the time that my mom was diagnosed with a brain tumor. Since my sister, brother, and I were all pretty young, my parents didn't give us the full details concerning the seriousness of Mom's prognosis. Yet, I still worried about all of the possible outcomes involving her brain surgery. This song gave me comfort when I was fearful, and it gave me the encouragement I needed to trust God through all of my concerns. Like many families, my family has been through a lot medically. Two things that I have learned through the heart ache of going through uncertain times is (1) the power of praying people, and (2) the significance of the support of a loving family all gathered together for the sake of one. Not only did my mom make it through her surgery successfully, but the tumor considered cancerous by her doctors, was determined to be benign. Thankfully, most of the issues she was having due to the tumor stopped after her surgery.

**pictures are not from actual date of events**

In high school, I began making some decisions that I wasn't considerably proud of. I struggled with my relationship with God, knowing that the choices I was making were driving a wedge between the closeness I could be experiencing with Him. At the end of my junior year, as I was driving along the Old Kentucky Road to my job at Central View Market, I decided to try out WayFM again, and see what new songs I had missed out on over a year or two. "More" by Matthew West was on, and I immediately fell in love with the song. To this day, I consider it one of my favorite songs. I didn't feel guilty, or upset, or shameful. I felt loved. On that day, I had a heart to heart with God that I wanted to change. I'll be honest, it didn't happen that quickly. It took baby steps and a few of those ridiculous 1 step forward, 2 steps back. But overall, it was the beginning of my reconnection with God.

Kella and I went to Winter Jam 2007 with some girls from church... Matthew West was one of the artists there. This shirt has been well worn, that's for sure.

Not all of my music memories are serious-- many of the songs just remind me of riding around with my sister singing loud and acting goofy with our brother in the back seat probably wishing he could trade us in for two brothers instead. My favorite being BarlowGirl, Kella's Jeremy Camp, and Joah was partial to Family Force 5. Sometimes I wish we could share those kind of moments again-- just act plain weird together like brothers and sisters do... or maybe that was just us.

I bet you didn't know that my husband can sing. :) He's very modest with his abilities... I truly love his voice. The very first date we went on, he was belting out to Matchbook Romance. I just loved the fact that he felt comfortable enough to do that because there was NO way that I would've sung in front of him. I was shy to the most extreme level when I met Ryan... I'm really surprised he kept me around. After many failed attempts to take me to dinner after the basketball finals in Murfreesboro, my parents finally gave me permission to go with him knowing that Ryan's mom and sister would be with us on the trip home. I rode in the car with them to Demos', ate dinner, and rode an hour and a half back home with Ryan and his family. Neither of us can recall that I said anything the whole trip. I mean, really? Would you have kept dating me? Ryan brought out a confidence in me that I had buried down deep. That's one of the many reasons why he's my match. :) "Learning to Breathe" by Switchfoot is my all time favorite song that Ryan sings. Anytime that I turn this song on, I beg Ryan to sing it to me. I just love it!

I know you want me to go on and on more about my whole life, but "no says I." To conclude my music post, I feel compelled to leave you with a list that would create the best darn mixed CD you've ever had with a combination of new and oldish. Enjoy.

"Your Love is a Song" by Switchfoot
"Everything is Beautiful" by Starfield
"Yahweh" by Tal & Acacia
"I Believe" by Building 429
"Revelation" by Third Day
"Manifesto" by This City Harmonic
"Breathe You In" by Thousand Foot Krutch
"Unbreakable" by Fireflight
"Slumber" by Needtobreathe
"How He Loves" by David Crowder Band
"Lead Me to the Cross" by Brooke Fraser
"Shadowfeet" by Brooke Fraser
"Lost at Sea" by Jimmy Needham
"I Believe in Love" by BarlowGirl
"Hello Sunshine" by BarlowGirl
"Audience of One" by Big Daddy Weave
"By Your Side" by Tenth Avenue North
"High of '75" by Relient K
"Your Hands" by J.J. Heller
"Courageous" by Casting Crowns
"The Face of Love" by Sanctus Real
"Breathe In Breathe Out" by Mat Kearney
"All of Creation" by MercyMe
"There is a Way" by Newworldson
"Strong Enough" by Matthew West
"Beg" by Shane & Shane